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Well, it has been a suitably long time since I last posted here, might as well do it again.

Life: Adrienne and I broke up, and it was very difficult for me. Six months after that I tried to spark a new relationship with a different girl, which ended quickly in an implosion of self-confidence (translation: I now have it in writing that I'm the creepy guy. Yep, go me). I now live alone in a quiet little house, and spend most of my days biking to class (still a GAIT major) or chilling at work (I'm head of graphics at KS Computer Solutions).

Internet: Website is still going strong. Domain name change but that's about it, otherwise just continuing to update thrice a week. I'm still contributing a tiny bit to Sauerbraten/Eisenstern. Reading more webcomics than ever before. Getting into watching more and more anime.

Yup, that's about it. See you again in a year or so!

Um, lets see, been a year and a half since i posted here last... nurr?

A few things have happened. I've stopped working on CL (though I now do some support art for Sauerbraten). I'm in college. I'm still dating Adrienne. I've got a "real" website (ish). And I'm real close to having a webcomic of my own to publish. Go me!

But alas, I am not here to start blogging. I have reactivated this account so I can communicate with some other artists through LJ. I know, shoot me.

CL continues to advance. School is getting harder. My parents are getting harder to live with.

I'm gonna have to buy a $200 bumper and $179 light for the forrester, because i cut too soon when backing out of the carport. yep, i'm $400 in the whole, once you count in tax. I'm just hoping i don't have to pay for labor too. $400 is already two weeks of fulltime work, and i haven't even got a job yet.

Yeah, i'm pretty seriously stressed. Much more and i'm gonna crack. I'm doing everything in my power to seem stable and relaxed, unconcerned, but i think it's starting to show through that it's an illusion. I'm a test or two from screaming in the halls.

senior banquet was nice. i lived.
conference was awful. i almost got luke nelson, but had a time of 19:10.
we decided to not let nelson run regionals. it was happy.
we made the RAT video. it was beautiful.
i did great at regionals, got 2nd on the team and finally PRed at 17:19.
been coding *gaspo* in CL, finally got flame effect and some new triggers coded in.
Gonna look into getting a job soon. bleh.

4drn is fine, except that we're both hurting under the workload.

so, now to decide whether i want to bitch at the senior banquet or not... i don't think i will, for the sake of the team, but i'm not going past conference. this was my last shitty practice, i'm not putting up with it anymore.

So, CC is basically sucking right now. the coaches have forgotten how to coach, my teammates are idiots, my captains can't lead. i have gotten 40 seconds worse than last year and each race gets harder to complete.

if several things don't change fast, i'm gonna fucking quit. it's not worth the time i'm losing.

So, the meet yesterday did not go so hot for me. It's not really a surprise, i've been sucking for some time now and i've never done well on that course (never will, now), but i still hoped to PR. Oh well.

But the ride back was great fun, and i got to spend time with 4drn that evening. I'm thoroughly entranced by FFX, and am enjoying spending what little time i can with 4drn.

but unfortunately, i have been neglecting my other responsibilities. I have yet to attend any club meetings, i need some form of income (being broke now), and i need to do some serious room cleaning.

making matters worse, my parent's are giving me a hard time about wanting to stay out later and do my own thing. i'm gonna have to do something terribly darastic to make them listen to me.

more on this later...


oh, and i've succcessfully done my first bit of ActionScripting. w00t!

Meh. working hard. Still falling behind.

CC has gotten a bit better though. Patrick is becoming a better captain.

so, i've discovered VG Cats (www.vgcats.com) to supplement my intake of Ctrl-Alt-Del Online (www.ctrlaltdel-online.com) and Megatokyo (www.megatokyo.com). Hopefully the three can distract me enough to keep me from going crazy.

On other news, i'm back working on CL, because i decided it was vital to my sanity. Without it i'm gonna crack. (the number of things my sanity depends on is alarming. damn you, senior year.) So i've been fixing all my old models to make them run better and look a bit cleaner.

Meet yesterday went well for watauga, even though we were missing several people, including me, brookes, and meaghan. It was still fun.

This all amounts to not doing my math homework, which i am somewhat behind in. Bleh.

Finally doing this. Whew, what a lot to catch up on.

My birthday went well, i was able to enjoy myself, help others to have a good time, and get some great presents. There were more than a few htiches in the party, but it went pretty well overall.

So now i'm 18, and don't really feel any different. I can buy pr0n, but have no inclination to. I can buy... no wait, no i can't. *sigh* 18 isn't all it's cracked up to be.

Me and 4drn desperately need to go on a date, it's been too long what with school and all. I've felt so harassed and overworked for the last few weeks it's not funny even to me.

On the bright side, WT is soon, if i get the forms in. I'll have to distribute the applications tomorrow morning.


red dwarf continues to make me happy.

Paranoid: Low
Schizoid: Low
Schizotypal: Moderate
Antisocial: Low
Borderline: Low
Histrionic: Low
Narcissistic: Low
Avoidant: Low
Dependent: Low
Obsessive-Compulsive: Low

Huh. Apparently I'm completely normal.

MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!

Did the grayson hike with 4drn and the family, it was fun. Also made a Eng 405 site this weekend, rather than doing my math homework. Trying to decide if i'm well enough to visit 4drn tonight.

too tired to type full sentences.

Captains were elected- Patrick and Isaac, Meaghan and Kellen. Not my picks obviously, but there's nothing I can do about that. Instead, i'm creating a postion for me and Kyle, 4drn and Conley- we get to be the "left hands", the people who punish those who break the rules.

School is chugging away, quite irritating and difficult. Gas is getting increasingly expensive, which makes me sad. And on top of that, my allergies persist. I hate August.

But i'll be 18 in less than two weeks.

I've had another rough week and weekend. if not for 4drn i'm sure i'd be going crazy.

CC captains should be getting elected soon. *cross fingers* i just hope that the seniors can still lead universally. On a different note, the hendersonville race sucked this year. Me and most of the team had a really rough time, especially poor 4drn.

I'm too lazy to type more.

Thanks to Tigerdirect being gay, i have bought and rejected a motherboard in a single day, which makes me sad. I was really excited too.

On a different but related note, i got to see my brother John down in Raleigh, which was good. College is treating him well, which means he's been quite helpful with my endeavors.

My endeavors are most slacking related. I've been splicing datasheets together, which means i do a good bit of work to get out of doing work :) I have also decided that i don't have enough time anymore for CL, which means i'm gonna make one final release and then let the horse rest. I've learned a lot, acquired a lot of skill and insight, but now it's time to focus my dwindling energies on other stuff, like 4drn. Also, i'm in serious need of a zelda boost, i just don't have any inspiration anymore. I feel so hypocritical at ZL.

Hm. Maybe i'll be able to update twice a week.

I have become addicted to Ctrl-Alt-Del, a comic strip about gamers. apparently half my family reads it. it's very funny, and nicely drawn. not as artsy as megatokyo, but colored.

On even more GeeXy news, i have moved CL from the cube engine to sauerbraten. it's kind of a rough change, but in the end it'll give me a lot more room to expand.

meh. will update probably once a week from now on, hopefully on saturdays.

I've had a rough week, to be honest. school is not improved, in fact it has gone significantly downhill- and on top of that, the CC team seems to be setting itself up for failure. We're nowhere near cohesive enough.

Finally, me and 4drn had a tiff last night, which had us both very upset. i hope it doesn't resurface, but knowing my clumsy tongue, it probably will.

due to a combination of extrme busyness and resulting exhaustion, i have not updated this journal in a long long time. bleh. hopefull i can be more regular now that school is starting thursday.

today's morning run sucked. i've had really bad allergies for the last few days and it's impairing my breathing severely. i am not at all happy with the situation. not only that, but the other seniors on the CC team seem content to let Luke Nelson abuse the team as a whole. i'm really worried that he's gonna ruin some of our upcoming freshmen, which will be an irreversible loss.

oh well. if they don't give a fuck, why should i? after all, all the bastard is doing is poisoning the season...

I'm off to WT today, which excites me greatly in some ways, but it also makes me sad, b/c now i won't see anybody until August. :(

Lot has been going on in my life, but i haven't commented on it yet. i will when i get back.

Yesterday i went to the micro-meet Coach Mac held. it was fun, if a little infintesimal. I ran the mile with T-Mac, 4drn, and my sister, which resulted in a 5:17 time for me, and that's including the time it took for me to rip off my racing shoes after the second lap
t(-_-t) this is what you get for distracting me while tying my shoes, biggo.

i have done a lot of purchasing in the last few days. I got a new book (Naked Empire by Terry Goodkind), a new sleeping pad from Campnor, the Van Helsing DVD, a new Gamestop card and with it a subscription to GameInformer, and a case of Powerade (mmmm powerade...)

going camping with Patrick and hopefully Bogardus tonight, after eating with 4drn. hope i actually get some rest.